Nurse life & TayZar Creations + GIVEAWAY

img_3760For those of you that don’t know… besides my full-time job of a mother and wife, I am also a part-time registered nurse. I felt it was important to touch on the subject to really be honest and true to those who keep up with my life as a wife and mom and the other part of what makes me, ME. Being a nurse wasn’t always a “dream” of mine, mostly because I was so indecisive of what I wanted to pursue as a career. What I always did know was that I had a huge desire to help others in any way and that I was very much interested in the medical field. As a young girl, I was that child who sat to eat her breakfast or any meal while watching all the gory medical shows in awe. Well, soon enough I was in high school and had the opportunity to be part of a medical program. I was able to explore different careers in the medical field, while originally graduating and thinking I wanted to be a paramedic… well college soon was about to begin and others motivated me to strive for something else. Not because I don’t have respect for those in that area or because their job is less important or their job title and education are any less than others… but because I would be the first in my family to enter college and well graduating with a bachelors would be so rewarding for me and my family. Well, I considered physical therapist until I sat and had a very concrete and inspirational conversation with an old teacher of mine. She was the person who would push me into the nursing field and who motivated me and felt my personality and desire to help would fit in the nursing field. Well, to say the least… I got into nursing school, had many sleepless nights and days of stressful studying but ended up graduating (and meeting my now hubby ūüėČ ) and now a working nurse.

Nursing is tough, is far more than it’s made out to be and a lot more than what they tell you in nursing school… but one things for sure, ¬†I love being able to help others. I enjoy learning more everyday and having patient interaction. It’s a hard job, one that most certainly everyone is not suited for but one I’m glad I’m able to be part of. Like everything, it has its good and not so good benefits.. it’s hard but rewarding at the same time. Schedules are flexible with working 3 12 hours shifts, but it ends up being a 13-14 hour day including travel to and from work with 12 hours shifts. ¬†You miss out on special holidays and time away from family but again, it can be so rewarding if it’s where your heart is at. I hope to keep learning and growing and finding a new area to be a nurse in, in the field. One suited for a family with more manageable work times but I hope to keep having an impact on my patients and family members. I hope God allows me to touch others hearts in times of need with more grace and empathy. I hope he gives me mental and physical strength to want to keep pursuing more. I hope to be a better nurse each day and to always guide me in my days at work. But I also pray to be able to find work and life balance in this stage of my motherhood life.

I’m so grateful for one thing as a nurse! And that’s SCRUBS! With such early mornings and late evenings, nothing says more than comfort than scrubs. Let’s be honest, might as well call them “dress up Pajamas!” Haha. Well they also can get a little boring unless you work in pediatrics or a doctor’s office where you don’t all have to go in the same plain colors. Well there’s one way to spruce it up a bit and that’s with badge reels! A good friend and I have partnered up to introduce you to these cuties! She makes the cutest and most awesome badge reels. Fellow nurse and co-worker is making these awesome designs in a variety of designs! Below are some of her awesome designs. With so many holidays around, make sure my fellow nurse friends and anyone who pretty much wears a badge to work, goes to check out her Etsy shop and grab one! They are sturdy and so well made. I’m loving my custom-made reel to add a bit of dazzle to my plain uniform! Lots of new designs coming up on her shop. Oh and if you’re a pediatric nurse, you’ll love all her cute Disney and princess designs. ¬†Below are a few of her latest badge reels. I’m so excited to support small businesses and this is sure one of them.¬†Were teaming up and giving away two of these awesome badges to two individuals with your personalized initial!

TO ENTER GIVEAWAY:

  1. Subscribe to Grace Fulfilling Blog at the top right and enter your email. Make sure to check your email for confirmation!
  2. Follow me on Instagram @ Instagram.com/jenni0829
  3. Follow Tayzar creations on Instagram @ Instagram.com/tayzarcreations

PLEASE ENTER YOUR NAME AND EMAIL BELOW INCASE YOUR ARE OUR LUCKY WINNER!

WINNER WILL BE ANNOUNCED OCTOBER 6th via email or Instagram account ūüėČ

 

To order some of your own check out her easy shop here.

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Parenthood Feelings

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Our little guy turned 5 months a couple of days ago and my heart is conflicted. Part feels like time needs to slow down, another part feels proud when he reaches another milestone, and another feels just plain out blessed. You never really understand when others used to tell you, “you’ll understand when you’re a mom or dad” until you actually become a parent. My hubby and I have been all about the feelings lately with our little guy. He’s growing up and growing fast, he’s been changing right before our eyes and it makes us feel all sorts of way. We keep wanting him to stay little forever, so that forever he can look into our eyes the way he does with that twinkle of all the love for us. A look that just completely consumes us with a good overwhelming kind of love. ¬†We felt it was necessary to write these feelings so that forever we could remember them even though I doubt we will ever forget… as a mother and as a father we’ll remember this….

As a mother I will always remember all the hard sleepless nights, but I will also remember that during those nights, Noah looks up at me, his mom to be consoled, to be given love and affection. I will remember how sometimes, sleep just wasn’t on his mind but rather a smile to lighten up our dark nights. I will remember all the sleepless nights where I fought not only to close my eyes to sleep but also to keep them open to just be able to stare at him a little longer before we both fell asleep. I will remember always every little inch of him. Everyday that passes all I pray for is for guidance. Guidance to be the best mom I could be for our little boy. To have patience, to be a good example, to keep him safe, to be his friend but also his Mother above all. I pray to always be able and capable of always being there for him. As a mother I hope that when I fail and make mistakes, I hope to learn from those mistakes to be a better me and a better mom to Noah. But through it all I hope to always lean on my faith and his grace during this whole journey of motherhood and parenthood along with my husband.

As for my husband… this is what he’d like to share…

“Our baby boy Noah turned 5 months old. It reminded me about a month back Jen brought home a onesie that seemed rather big. I told her “no way he fits in that in 6 months”, she said “he almost fits in it now”. I held it up next to my torso and I couldn’t believe it. I remember getting emotional just thinking about how big Noah is quickly becoming. I kept asking myself, “is he really that big”. Our baby boy is growing up so quickly. I think that night it hit the both of us, that Noah is growing up and time is way past us. I wish time would slow down and he wouldn’t grow so fast! Might be selfish, but I want to keep him this way a little longer.

You really don’t know what it is to be a parent until you are one. I am quickly starting to find out the meaning of that saying. The love that grows in you for your child is something beyond this world. I never thought I can love something or someone so much. I never thought I would care so much about someone growing up and changing. These feelings extend much deeper, not even words can describe it. The one thing I can say is not to take these moments for granted. This is a unique experience and as a new parent, try to soak as much of it in because it’ll flash right before your eyes.” – Xavier

As for our little¬†Noah,¬†know that you are sooo very loved. You have changed our lives in ways we never knew.¬†Your dad and I thought we knew what deep unconditional love was,¬†but the truth is, we didn’t until you came into our lives. We promise to always be there for you and love you with all our might our sweet babe.¬†We’re so grateful and feel so blessed God¬†chose us to be your parents, there is no greater privilege. We hope to be the best of us with the guidance of the one up above¬†for you¬†baby boy.

With all our love,

Your mom and dad.
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Maternity shoot flashback & feelings

As I sit here holding our sweet baby boy in my arms today, I can only think of those days I was just feeling him move around in my belly. I would sit and stare at my growing belly just watching him move around, kicking stretching and hiccup-ing all inside of me. I was so full of excitement thinking he’d soon be in arms. But as I sat and stared and waited I’d just wonder how he would look, whose nose, eyes and how much hair he’d have. It was such a conflicting feeling to think I wouldn’t feel his little movements inside of me anymore but yet how much I would love just holding him in my arms staring him down for hours. Well he is here…. and I’m staring down at him thinking time is going fast. Our little man is almost 3 months old, even though he looks like he’s almost 5 months old! (He was a big boy since birth! Lol) now I sit and look through these photographs and just smile. I smile because pregnancy for me was oh so hard in the beginning and not till a little over half way did i start feeling better.. but pregnancy is beautiful. Even though sometimes I was so uncomfortable and my body was going through so many changes it scared me, pregnancy is beautiful. It’s a beautiful miracle of life that God has granted us with. A privilege to hold life and care for it with all of Gods grace and an everlasting love. Pregnancy is such a wonderful gift. I also smile at these photographs because they’re also a reminder of when it was just my sweet husband and I. When all of our love turned into waiting for our little boy. I also smile because it sends me back to the times it was just Xavier and I and all our dreams and the stories owe share together before our little guy came to this world. They’re the sweetest memories and just makes me feel all sorts of butterflies because I love this man so much. Our story is beautiful… it has never been perfect but our story is beautiful and full of love. These photographs are just a small vision into that love my husband and I share.. and all the love we’re going to be giving our baby boy. ¬†Now we’ll look at these and have flashbacks of all those feelings leading up to his arrival… a sweet memory in deed.

Thank you BecaCompanioni at BecaCphotography for capturing all of this love in these beautiful photographs. ‚̧

I’d do any adventure with you my love… this is just the beginning… Noah is another chapter in our story.. love you both with all my heart.

‚̧ Jen

Mothers Day & A Rainbow Baby

To those who aren’t familiar with the term “rainbow baby” this posts title may seem just like an ordinary Mother’s Day post. Truth is, it’s an extra special post… This post will probably be one of the closest to my heart… I’m sharing something so personal, so difficult but now so rewarding and special all at once. For any other mother out there who knows the term “rainbow baby” you may be able to relate. This year, I will be ‘celebrating‘ my first Mother’s Day, and truth is, I couldn’t feel more blessed to be able to say that. This year, I became a mother to an earthly little angel, Noah Xavier Carcache… he arrived on April 19, 2017 at 2:17pm via c-section weighing in at a healthy 10lbs and 1oz and 22 inches long! He came to us as a healthy and perfect little boy! My heart has never felt so full of love, so complete and so overwhelmed by the grace God has shown me and my husband. Truth is this baby boy has come to us after much prayer.

On this Mother’s Day, I wanted to introduce you to our “rainbow baby” a rainbow after the storm… You see what makes this year so special for me and for my family, is that last year during this special day, we thought we’d be sharing beautiful and happy filled news to our family… except ,we were mourning. We were mourning the loss of what we thought would be our first baby… This time last year we were preparing to tell our family, that I too would be celebrating ‘mothers day,’ except God had different plans for us.. and even though in the beginning I couldn’t understand the “why” I had to trust that only he knew the plans he had for me and the plans he had for me as a mom.. that week, we had a miscarriage. The loss was a devastating one… and one that will forever be a part of me, who I am… and a reminder of how gracious God has been in allowing me to be able to now hold this beautiful baby boy in my arms this year.

Our sweet baby boy has been a constant reminder of Gods grace and how grateful, blessed and loved my husband and I are to have him here with us. My husband and I are taking him all in, and opening our arms and heart fully for this little boy. ¬†He has changed our lives in so many ways, more than he will ever know and in more good ways than not. Truth is, our lives changed drastically ¬†a year ago that moment when we got the news at¬†the doctor’s office, with the words, “I’m sorry but I believe you are experiencing the beginning of a miscarriage” followed by the moment we thought we would first see our first baby via ultrasound. What we really did see was emptiness, and experience the feeling of an empty heart… that’s why this year is so special. Our hearts are as full as they have ever been, our hands are as full as they could be for now, fully full with a healthy baby boy that we could now physically hold, kiss, hug and stare at for hours at a time without blinking an eye and be full of so much love, that I don’t know what to do with myself sometimes.

This Mother’s Day all I need is to hold my baby boy in my arms, because he is my greatest gift. I share this not because I need someone to feel bad for our story… but rather because it’s a story of redemption… a story that so many other women and family’s experience. Today I am beyond grateful, and today I remember my little angel in heaven whose been watching over us. A little angel who has made us realize to be a little more grateful this year because we now have a little blessing to hold. ¬†I pray and empathize today with any woman out there whose experienced a miscarriage, a loss or even infertility. It’s a rough road, but one that should push us to lean on to faith a little more, because your little miracle will soon come too. ¬†Today, I am the happiest mama out there, today I count my blessings. He’s our rainbow after the storm, but a storm in which we learned so much about us as a couple, as a woman, as a wife and mother. Today ¬†I will hold my little Noah, a little closer, kiss and hug him a little more and thank God for every inch of this little boy.

Second Trimester Week By Week

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Recapping our 2nd trimester photos with you all with our week by week progress photos! We shared our 1st trimester photos with you all here¬†a couple of weeks ago. We shared our first trimester feelings and a little of the rough patches this mama had to deal with in regards to morning sickness! I have to be honest, while there was a significant change during the 2nd trimester, this mama still had a rough time with the “morning sickness“…ALL day sickness.. even during our second trimester up until about 23 weeks! Then things seemed to start clearing up, which was the best feeling EVER guys! Seriously! Even the slightest relief was much appreciated by this mama!

Its been so fun for us to see my belly growing and knowing that its growing because our little guy is growing healthy and strong, it’s all sorts of good feelings. I think some of our favorite things during this semester were two special moments. One of those moments was when I realized I was actually feeling my little babe move around in my belly.. that was a sweet moment that I will cherish forever. The second, was definitely when my husband got to feel our little guy as well from the outside. I think seeing his face and his reaction warmed my heart like crazy. ¬†I also think it starts putting things into perspective, that soon enough our family will be growing and that more love will be poured out. I seriously couldn’t feel more blessed. The excitement of entering our third trimester is also overwhelming in good ways and of course with a little bit of nerves. But I know that things will come and it will be a learning process. Thank goodness for family who has your back!

This semester is definitely when you start getting really noticed guys! I’m so serious! This is when all the strangers ask all the infamous questions.. “are you pregnant?!OMG I didn’t know” “when are you do?!” “do you know what you’re having?!” oh… and my ultimate favorite…. “are you sure there’s only one in there?!” -_- Seriously? This is when I have to count to 10 and calm my raging hormones…lol seriously. Sometimes, this is also when I just smile and walk away and say…”Its one¬†healthy baby, but have a nice day!” ¬†Lord knows I try to stay humble about it all.

I think most of these questions started coming up for us mostly around the 20 week period. Which God knows I don’t mind, but sometimes I wish people would be a little more mindful of how they ask certain questions… Do they not realize you’re a basket full of hormones!? Also, I think its easy as women to compare and judge a little bit… But I’ll take this time to say, “I FORGIVE YOU, for saying it how you did, haha” We should all just be conscious of the fact that were all different. We are all different shapes and sizes and we all show our pregnancies differently.¬†I think as a woman, we need to embrace that fact and just be super proud of what our amazing bodies are capable of and our doing. So if you’re a mama to be like me, and in the midst of these wonderful body changes, I say… you go girl! Wear it proud! God works within us and this is just another of his ways to show how present he is within us and what his capabilities are for us as mama to be’s and for our nurturing bodies!

P.S pregnancy always doesn’t always make you look your best, we get tired, we feel sick, we want sweat pants, etc! Some days we are feeling more beautiful than others… Reason why I chose to be as raw with you all as possible. Some of these photos aren’t always when this mama has felt her best… But in each one of them, I felt truly blessed and confident!
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One Year Anniversary PhotoShoot In NYC

0033For our one year wedding anniversary we knew we wanted to make it special… it really does only¬†come around once! So, we did… We knew we wanted to travel somewhere for that date and had been talking about it for a while before we actually decided where we would go. At first, we thought we would go to a place we hadn’t visited yet and thought of Colorado. But..¬†shortly after we were thinking of our plans, we got pregnant! haha.. Our plans had to change, especially since we had been planning to do hikes up mountains, possible snow activities were also in the talk, and we surely did know that with a pregnant belly, none of those would be a good idea. So plans got placed on hold, we were now on a budget with baby on the way.. but last minute we found a great deal on flights to our favorite city! New York City! It only made sense, we have wonderful memories in this city and it holds a special place in our hearts. Not only do we love getting a taste of the hustle and bustle of the city, but this was the place we got engaged and one of the most memorable places in our love story. We couldn’t wait to re-live and re-visit some of those places and make more memories while documenting along the way. Hence this awesome photoshoot that I absolutely love and ¬†was so excited to share with you all! ¬†0031I always had this idea in my head that for our one year anniversary we would have a photoshoot and remember our day and what it meant to us, something small, and just personal. Luckily for us, I ran into the sweetest, nicest photographer! I also must mention, very talented and professional. If you’re looking for some great photos in the city at a great price, she’s your girl! She was so awesome and we were so happy with the end result!

I love these photographs, what they mean to us and all the feelings they encompass. Its another chapter in our lives and couldn’t feel more blessed for these memories we are making along the way and all the memories we are about to make together very soon!

All photography  by : Tatiana Katkova

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Our 1st Trimester’s Recap

1samuel1-27We haven’t done much blogging lately, mostly due to our busy schedules, holidays and this mama dealing with “all day sickness” or plain out being tired! But I figured its time to catch you all up a little and re-cap the beginning of our pregnancy journey with our 1st trimester photos.¬†¬†The truth is… 1st trimester was a little rough around the edges… and maybe that’s me putting it in light terms in comparison to how I actually felt. Truth being, I felt too incredibly blessed and too incredibly guilty to complain for such a huge blessing we were given! The blessing of a child, the opportunity to experience pregnancy and the honor of being called parents. While I tried to remind myself of all this, I will be honest…I was incredibly frustrated many days. I wasn’t keeping any food down, the nausea was ALL day and I was loosing weight. All I know is that as a first time mom-to-be, you worry… you worry when you feel you are not doing everything you can possibly do to keep your growing baby healthy and strong and frustration I must admit won over often. Thats when Im grateful for a wonderful supporting husband, family and friends who kept me grounded and focused on the big picture,¬†and reminded me of the¬†greatest gift God had placed in our lives. I just had to fight through it, focus on the Joy this little babe was bringing us and how full my heart truly was. I will admit the back rubs I got from hubby during the rushes to the bathroom, were and still are cherished and appreciated! He’s like the cheerleader rooting me on! haha. But all nausea and sickness aside, 1st trimester was also full of joy and happiness. Memories like announcing our pregnancy to our close family and friends are memories we will forever remember and cherish. They’re all so full of love and happiness that they’d be hard to forget. We would be lying if worry and anxiety never popped into our heads for the changes to come, but the truth is… this babe was soooo wanted and we prayed so hard for this little babe that the joy and reality of it really happening overcomes any of those anxieties. Plus, we know we always have the big man above us to lean on with our worries, and trusting in the Lord during this time is and will continue to be the best thing we can do.

For now, we will continue to look forward to having better days! Nausea free hopefully and fewer trip to the bathroom, haha! So here is our week by week pregnancy photo updates! Excuse the look, messy hair, pale faces and anything in between! haha.. I do promise this, baby boy is healthy and growing strong!

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{Just a couple of our first trimester memories of our sweet babe}

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