Mothers Day & A Rainbow Baby

To those who aren’t familiar with the term “rainbow baby” this posts title may seem just like an ordinary Mother’s Day post. Truth is, it’s an extra special post… This post will probably be one of the closest to my heart… I’m sharing something so personal, so difficult but now so rewarding and special all at once. For any other mother out there who knows the term “rainbow baby” you may be able to relate. This year, I will be ‘celebrating‘ my first Mother’s Day, and truth is, I couldn’t feel more blessed to be able to say that. This year, I became a mother to an earthly little angel, Noah Xavier Carcache… he arrived on April 19, 2017 at 2:17pm via c-section weighing in at a healthy 10lbs and 1oz and 22 inches long! He came to us as a healthy and perfect little boy! My heart has never felt so full of love, so complete and so overwhelmed by the grace God has shown me and my husband. Truth is this baby boy has come to us after much prayer.

On this Mother’s Day, I wanted to introduce you to our “rainbow baby” a rainbow after the storm… You see what makes this year so special for me and for my family, is that last year during this special day, we thought we’d be sharing beautiful and happy filled news to our family… except ,we were mourning. We were mourning the loss of what we thought would be our first baby… This time last year we were preparing to tell our family, that I too would be celebrating ‘mothers day,’ except God had different plans for us.. and even though in the beginning I couldn’t understand the “why” I had to trust that only he knew the plans he had for me and the plans he had for me as a mom.. that week, we had a miscarriage. The loss was a devastating one… and one that will forever be a part of me, who I am… and a reminder of how gracious God has been in allowing me to be able to now hold this beautiful baby boy in my arms this year.

Our sweet baby boy has been a constant reminder of Gods grace and how grateful, blessed and loved my husband and I are to have him here with us. My husband and I are taking him all in, and opening our arms and heart fully for this little boy.  He has changed our lives in so many ways, more than he will ever know and in more good ways than not. Truth is, our lives changed drastically  a year ago that moment when we got the news at the doctor’s office, with the words, “I’m sorry but I believe you are experiencing the beginning of a miscarriage” followed by the moment we thought we would first see our first baby via ultrasound. What we really did see was emptiness, and experience the feeling of an empty heart… that’s why this year is so special. Our hearts are as full as they have ever been, our hands are as full as they could be for now, fully full with a healthy baby boy that we could now physically hold, kiss, hug and stare at for hours at a time without blinking an eye and be full of so much love, that I don’t know what to do with myself sometimes.

This Mother’s Day all I need is to hold my baby boy in my arms, because he is my greatest gift. I share this not because I need someone to feel bad for our story… but rather because it’s a story of redemption… a story that so many other women and family’s experience. Today I am beyond grateful, and today I remember my little angel in heaven whose been watching over us. A little angel who has made us realize to be a little more grateful this year because we now have a little blessing to hold.  I pray and empathize today with any woman out there whose experienced a miscarriage, a loss or even infertility. It’s a rough road, but one that should push us to lean on to faith a little more, because your little miracle will soon come too.  Today, I am the happiest mama out there, today I count my blessings. He’s our rainbow after the storm, but a storm in which we learned so much about us as a couple, as a woman, as a wife and mother. Today  I will hold my little Noah, a little closer, kiss and hug him a little more and thank God for every inch of this little boy.

Second Trimester Week By Week

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Recapping our 2nd trimester photos with you all with our week by week progress photos! We shared our 1st trimester photos with you all here a couple of weeks ago. We shared our first trimester feelings and a little of the rough patches this mama had to deal with in regards to morning sickness! I have to be honest, while there was a significant change during the 2nd trimester, this mama still had a rough time with the “morning sickness“…ALL day sickness.. even during our second trimester up until about 23 weeks! Then things seemed to start clearing up, which was the best feeling EVER guys! Seriously! Even the slightest relief was much appreciated by this mama!

Its been so fun for us to see my belly growing and knowing that its growing because our little guy is growing healthy and strong, it’s all sorts of good feelings. I think some of our favorite things during this semester were two special moments. One of those moments was when I realized I was actually feeling my little babe move around in my belly.. that was a sweet moment that I will cherish forever. The second, was definitely when my husband got to feel our little guy as well from the outside. I think seeing his face and his reaction warmed my heart like crazy.  I also think it starts putting things into perspective, that soon enough our family will be growing and that more love will be poured out. I seriously couldn’t feel more blessed. The excitement of entering our third trimester is also overwhelming in good ways and of course with a little bit of nerves. But I know that things will come and it will be a learning process. Thank goodness for family who has your back!

This semester is definitely when you start getting really noticed guys! I’m so serious! This is when all the strangers ask all the infamous questions.. “are you pregnant?!OMG I didn’t know” “when are you do?!” “do you know what you’re having?!” oh… and my ultimate favorite…. “are you sure there’s only one in there?!” -_- Seriously? This is when I have to count to 10 and calm my raging hormones…lol seriously. Sometimes, this is also when I just smile and walk away and say…”Its one healthy baby, but have a nice day!”  Lord knows I try to stay humble about it all.

I think most of these questions started coming up for us mostly around the 20 week period. Which God knows I don’t mind, but sometimes I wish people would be a little more mindful of how they ask certain questions… Do they not realize you’re a basket full of hormones!? Also, I think its easy as women to compare and judge a little bit… But I’ll take this time to say, “I FORGIVE YOU, for saying it how you did, haha” We should all just be conscious of the fact that were all different. We are all different shapes and sizes and we all show our pregnancies differently. I think as a woman, we need to embrace that fact and just be super proud of what our amazing bodies are capable of and our doing. So if you’re a mama to be like me, and in the midst of these wonderful body changes, I say… you go girl! Wear it proud! God works within us and this is just another of his ways to show how present he is within us and what his capabilities are for us as mama to be’s and for our nurturing bodies!

P.S pregnancy always doesn’t always make you look your best, we get tired, we feel sick, we want sweat pants, etc! Some days we are feeling more beautiful than others… Reason why I chose to be as raw with you all as possible. Some of these photos aren’t always when this mama has felt her best… But in each one of them, I felt truly blessed and confident!
img_073514weeks in the Bahamas for a weekend getaway!

img_072219 weeks in Brooklyn NYC for this mama and daddy’s 1 year wedding anniversary!
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A Sweet Baby Gender Reveal

batch_img_9702This past weekend, we had the honor or sharing with our close friends and family one very exciting moment for Xavier and I.. the gender of our sweet babe! We knew from the get go that we wanted to be surprised along with everyone and that we would try to do it in a creative manner, or at least in an exciting way! Along the way, some of my close girlfriends and mom decided they wanted in on the plan and wanted to help us out with the reveal! Which by the way, I appreciated with all my heart being that this mama has had some difficult days with all the nausea and yes…trips to the bathroom..sigh. But with that on the side, brain storming took off and we ended up with the sweetest gender reveal night! Our simple sweet theme was bow ties or bows and while its one we’ve seen before, it was ours and it was perfect! Some great DIY’s also came into play by yours truly, since we all know that I’m up for a good arts and craft! The time and effort that my mom and friends took out of their schedules was just a huge meaning of love and a reminder of how much this sweet baby is already loved and cared for! After a couple of snacks and a couple guesses from our guests, it was reveal time. We found a way to make the reveal explosive and made it POP! We found the cutest reveal balloon on etsy, over at Baby Glimpses. My mom was the only one who knew the gender (because she begged! Lol) so she filled the balloon with the adequate color and when everyone was gathered around it was time! It was time to reveal what we had been patiently waiting for…a sweet baby girl or a handsome little boy! And just to make the occasion even more fun… that night we had a power outage! Yes! for most of the reveal we had no power! Lets just say, thank goodness for technology and phones with flashlights.. lol it was definitely a reveal to remember!

To start our bow ties and bows theme, this mama had some fun on her chalkboard’s and got to get in on some of the exciting plan!

My little sister also wanted in, and this cute little drawing was hung up near our precious little baby’s ultrasound baby selfies! We have that board in our home and we get to walk by everyday and stare at our little blessing!

Our closest friends and family also were wearing their baby guesses with these cute DIY bow ties and bows made by this mama. They were the cutest little things and fun to watch what our guest’s guesses were..

batch_img_9690batch_img_9717Now to talk about this sweet dessert table! IT WAS BEAUTIFUL! I was so in love with the whole set up! My friend brought all these yummy treats and cake to us from a baker friend, Jaclyn Otero. Everything was delicious and everything was gorgeous. batch_img_9713

Vanilla cake with nutella filling and cream cheese frosting?! Yes please! Oh and the most perfect bowties and bows cookies I ever did see.

Now is the time to bring your sense of humor out! Cupcake toppers with a meaning!

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The guys and the girls… this baby is going to be loved by so many!

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The aunts and uncles and the three ladies who made this day even more special with all their support and planning!

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It’s a Baby BOY!!

 

Our Sweet Baby

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Our sweet baby….

We have finally announced you to the world… But way before that, your daddy and I were secretly keeping you all to ourselves. We had been surprised by the reality of you and all the love that filled our hearts that very moment we found out about you. We were excited and nervous all at the same time! But the truth is, we had been praying for you for quite a little while before that. We were eager for you, praying and wishing for you. God’s timing was perfect, he knew when to bring you into our lives and fill our hearts with the greatest joy and love. We are already so honored and humbled to be your mami and daddy and already soo soo in love. We can’t wait to see you and hold you in our arms and see that little face that has already stold our hearts away. We are patiently waiting for your arrival! This mama has had a tough time with morning sickness and daddy keeps talking you to help mama out, but at the end we know it will all be worth it for you sweet baby. We are so humbled by the fact that we get to be your parents and share life with you and love you with all our hearts.. so you keep growing healthy and strong in mamas belly ok? Because you have a whole team behind you of friends and family who love you already so very much!! We know God is watching over us and you and we trust in him wholeheartedly! He is our strength in the middle of our fears, anxieties and even our joys and excitement through this whole journey leading up to meet you! Even our little lady dog Bella senses you bc she lays right next to this mamas belly all the time.

We can’t wait to meet you sweet baby!

Love, your mami and daddy! ❤